Thursday, May 28, 2020

MY SISTER IRIS

                          

                                                     





It always begins on this date every year.

My beloved sister Iris died on May 28th, 2004, and this marks the beginning of the period each year that fills me with incalculable suffering, inexplicable unfairness, tragedy that has wrought its massive destruction of so many good, loved members of my family, who deserved so very much better than they received in life and death.  

Once again, another year has passed and I dread the intensified agony of overwhelming grief that envelops me for these lost souls of my family during the upcoming months.

I need not be told that it is here, since the pain is always present, all the time, year round, but becomes insidiously unbearable as of this date, and in the next few months, every year.

I painfully miss and mourn those of my immediate family who have died, more so than at any other time, as each year passes.

Increasingly difficult, filled with the aching of a lifetime beaten down into the ever present, toxic, non stop personal demons, nightmares, flash backs, with memories vividly stamped inside my brain, as if it were just yesterday that we were all together as a family and of course, big sister and little brother.

I planted purple Iris flowers, one of them pictured above in the garden out front of my house when my sister died.


Each year I take new pictures as they spring to life and insert one on this blog in memory of her. 


I like the idea that they are perennials, returning every year, flowering in all their beauty, now looking so alive on another anniversary today of the day she died, after a courageous, painful battle to live. 

We do that a lot in my family, fighting to live life to the fullest, and when our time comes, refusing to let go until our last precious breath. They call our family fighters, survivors, and that is what we do in both living our life with happiness as a gift never to be taken for granted, and also the darkness which is part of remembering.

Iris was a unique and compassionate person who quietly touched everyone she met with her kindness and strength. 


Iris is missed by all of us who loved her. We will never forget her beautiful smile.

My sister was full of life, insightful, quiet, brave,

loyal, sagely wise, and then she was gone forever, horribly, excruciatingly painfully, and irrevocably. 

She deserved so much better in her short time on this earth but it was not to be.

Iris, my sister, a gift to me in life, was more beautiful in a million ways than these magnificent flowers. 


I will miss you forever my dear sister Iris, most of all, 


I will always miss your caring love. 

I love you. 

Love, Your little brother- Jerry.

Sunday, April 19, 2020

COVID VIRUS 19-HUMAN LIVES VS. THE ECONOMY

The WHO on Friday reported the global death toll is now 139,115.
The Johns Hopkins Coronavirus Resource Center, whose data is widely used and has been tracking higher than the official CDC and WHO numbers, said the total number of cases worldwide was 2,218,132 as of this afternoon, with 148,654 deaths. The center says 3.4 million people have recovered from COVID-19.
The U.S. has more total cases now than the combined cases in Spain, France, Germany and Italy, the countries with the most infections in Europe, per WHO data. Spain remains the most infected country outside the U.S. with 182,816 cases, while Italy has the most deaths at 22,172. On Friday, the UK became the fourth country in Europe to surpass 10,000 deaths.
The WHO on Friday reported the global death toll is now 139,115.
The Johns Hopkins Coronavirus Resource Center, whose data is widely used and has been tracking higher than the official CDC and WHO numbers, said the total number of cases worldwide was 2,218,132 as of this afternoon, with 148,654 deaths. The center says 3.4 million people have recovered from COVID-19.
The U.S. has more total cases now than the combined cases in Spain, France, Germany and Italy, the countries with the most infections in Europe, per WHO data. Spain remains the most infected country outside the U.S. with 182,816 cases, while Italy has the most deaths at 22,172. On Friday, the UK became the fourth country in Europe to surpass 10,000 deaths.
So the U.S. will reopen it's economy, State by State depending on decisons made by the Governors of each State that supposedly will be based on certain criteria. that deeply concern me.There is a killer, predator virus pandemic named Covid-19 that is lurking everywhere. It sickens and kills innocent human beings who are elderly and also young people, many who are not sufferring from any underlying medical conditions,by infecting them silently, spreading like a wild fire in a dry forest.
There is NOTHING that any "expert" truly knows or understands about this virus and it's behavior now and in the future. No-one knows if it will create a 2nd, and 3rd wave like the Spanish flu pandemic did here in 1918.The Spanish flu, also known as the 1918 flu pandemic, was an unusually deadly influenza pandemic. Lasting from January 1918 to December 1920, it infected 500 million people about a third of the world's population at the time.[ The death toll is estimated to have been anywhere from 17 million to 50 million, and possibly as high as 100 million, making it one of the deadliest pandemics in human history.The reason for the imprecise infection and death toll figures is that govts.deliberately hid the true amounts because they "didn't want to affect the morale of the people", in other words they lied to hide the truth.
There is NO treatmment for the covid 19 virus, it basically does what it wants regardless of any medical intervention. Supposedly certain unreliable anti-body tests because none of have undergone rigorous criteria to determine if they are accurate re-false negatives/false positives. Some have said that if you test positive for these antibodies that you are now immune from the virus and not contagious, but no-one knows that , especially if the virus mutates. There is also NO understanding whether this virus mutates into another form, or reoccurs in those that have recovered from it. Yet it is being assumed that therefore it is supposedly safe for that person to stop social distancing, etc.
Then there are unrelaible tests that determine whether you are currently infected with the virus or not. These tests also have not undergone rigorous criteria to determine if they are accurate re-false negatives/false positives. Some have also said that if you test negative that you do not have the virus and are not contagious, therfore it is supposedly safe for that person to stop social distancing no more lockdown for them.
All of the above tests are manufactured by different company's, their results are NOT interchangeable to compare with other Company's tests, and the methods of processing these results are all different among these Co's. You also must buy all your lab testing machines, lab testing chemicals from that specific Co. as they will not work with materials from the other Co's .
There is data that is also being used to make determination about lifting the lockdowns. How many people have been infected currently, in the past, and how many people have died, plus watching the daily amount of new cases/deaths. The problem with using this data is that it grossly underestimates the number of people who have had the virus, those who have died from it, and those who currently have the virus. This has been done by incompetence, sometimes deliberately undercounting the people who have been sick/died and other factors, such as those who have died at home, died in nursing homes, or just died without an autopsy done.
There are also "silent killers, people who have no symptoms but are in fact contagious carriers of the virus, then infecting whoever they personally interact with. These people don't even know they have the Covid19 virus.
In the final analysis, I believe that most of the data is false and yet it is being used to make life/death decisions of when the virus is "under control"
There are clearly short term and potentially long term physical/mental affects of many who have had the virus and recovered. Their lungs have often been permanently damaged, kidney function has been compromised, heart and other organs may be affected. Cognitive processes of the brain have been noted in many who have survived, memory loss, post traumatic stress disorder, brain fog, lack of abilityto concentrate, depression, weakness, balance problems, etc.
My point is that taking into account all of the above how can any medical person, infectious disease "expert", or governor determine when it is safe to stop the lockdowns.It is the lockdowns that have demonstrated that it will translate into less virus infections/deaths. Lifting of it's restrictions prematurely can cause a huge increase in new cases and many more deaths.
What I see is that with all these unknowns, decisons have and will be made that it is OK for more people to die because money/the economy trumps the value of human lives. By doing this, it is the real creation of death panels that have now assumed priority of money over human lives. By minimizing the dangers of the Covid virus, lying trump, lying gop flunkeys and ignorant people who believe these lies, will march our country into an even worse disaster.
I hope I am wrong, but there is nothing so far that makes me feel confident that any of the politicians knows if what they are doing is in the best interest of keeping the public safe. Do you trust our gov't to get this right? I don't and want to see a safer, much better plan than human liives are disposable,expendable, and it doesn't matter who gets sick/dies. That is unacceptable to make decisions that equate a balance that favors the economy over the lives of you, me, our loved ones, and the rest of our population. No amount of deaths, sickness ,suffering that is preventable should be tolerated by us as human beings.
I will keep fighting for the sanctity of human lives. if you and I are still here to survive all of this.

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Thursday, April 9, 2020

STAY HOME, STAY SAFE,SAVE LIVES



 STAY HOME.WEAR YOUR MASK, SAVE LIVES.

SO: You can’t be hassled to put on a SIMPLE MASK?
Do you own a special right to rob us of our loved ones, of our lives, of our time, our finances, heritage and hopes? Of our peace of mind?
You can’t be hassled to put on ONE THIN MASK?
Where is National Solidarity with your own Compatriots?
Where is Patriotic Selflessness, Intelligence and Compassion?
Where is National Superiority and Vision?
Do you know what an 80-year old or 90-year or 100-year old life represents?
A century of history witnessed and sacrifices made, a treasure chest of memories, stories, firsthand knowledge and wisdom, a caudal of solutions forgotten to humanity that may save our future.
A century of hugs, kisses and smiles shared with every life they’ve touched along the way.
Somebody’s parent, grandparent, great-grandparent and even great great grandparent and their unique transmitter of culture, family history, identity, continuity, purpose and values.
The most fragile living crystal of human heritage you could ever imagine, that is a never-ending fountain of information, anecdotes, observations, formulas, sage advice, graceful puns twinkling smiles, and above all, pure love.
A never-ending fountain of tenderness.
And... You can’t be hassled to put on A LIGHT MASK?
Do you know what a Mother is?
She is her children’s World.
She is their incubator for growth.
She is their nurturer, physically and emotionally, aesthetically and spiritually.
She is their sense of beauty, affection, and everything feminine and cozy in the world.
She is the one person in the world who knows them intimately, who reads their face and mind, who knows what they need before they themselves do.
She is their conspirator and strategist.
She is the only person in the world who will care 100% unconditionally for them for life.
And ditto for a Father.
And... You can’t be hassled to put on AN EFFORTLESS MASK?
Do you know the sacrifices we make throughout a lifetime to study, to grow and learn, to take care of ourselves, to be a better person, to make a contribution in the world?
Do you know the time it takes to build a home, a career, a family, a cause, a legacy?
Do you know how hard we’ve tried through life’s ups and downs, and risen from the ashes just to be there for those we love when they need us?
And... You can’t be hassled to put on a 2-SECOND MASK?
If you don’t care about yourself,
If your loved ones are dispensable to you,
If you don’t want to give this importance,
If you failed to educate yourself and have nothing better to do than consume conspiracy videos and delirious talk radio instead of Science and observing the empirical evidence of people dying all around you,
If you tout convenience and indulgence as your “freedoms” and can’t make a sacrifice during wartime for your own compatriots,
If you relish the idea of prolonguing this pandemic until people lose their homes, the economy crashes, our food supply chains collapse and there is famine, so you can pull out your Rambo gear,
If you have a God complex, think you’re invincible or have an exclusive right to destroy people’s lives,
... carry on with that in your own mind.
BUT PUT ON THE MASK.
Just DO NOT rob someone of their mother or their father, a child of their precious grandparents, society of its elders, or an elder of their right to longevity and to enjoy life after surviving a century.
DO NOT threaten your fellow human being’s inherent Right to Life. Your rights end where ours begin.
Every time you go out WITHOUT A MASK, you’re setting back the quarantine clock to ZERO for all of us.
YOU are the only conduit for spreading the virus – it has no other way of surviving past a few days on its own.
The mask does not only say you’re protecting yourself: It says you CARE.
It says you’re protecting others around you.
It says you’re a responsible citizen with a head on your shoulders.
It says you’re protecting your country and humanity to get out of this as quickly as possible and back to normal life.
It says you’re not a procrastinator and you’re not going to drag this out eternally for the rest of us.
WEAR A MASK EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU GO OUTSIDE.
People showing their full faces outside right now are saying, with their full face as a neon sign:
I don’t care if you die,
I don’t care if I kill your family,
I don’t care if you have to stay inside and out of work for another two months or a year,
I don’t care if you go bankrupt and lose your home, your business, your life savings and retirement, your child's college fund, the last cent of your family's emergency money,
I don't care about the pregnant, newborns, elderly, handicapped, immuno-compromised, the vulnerable, minorities or indigenous communities,
I don’t care if our society crashes.
Who are you?
Your face will become a poster of criminal negligence, and it will get recorded for posterity, as everyone all around photographs, videos and documents this moment of History. You can bet someone will make a collage of those unmasked faces.
Seriously, do you want to be that person?
Do you wear a seatbelt? How long does it take to click?
THEN. JUST. WEAR. THE. DAMN. MASK.
Is this message a bit strong? The consequences of not wearing a mask and following safety protocol right now are far stronger.




THIS terrifying animation shows how coronavirus particles from a single cough can hang in the air "several minutes" and spread across two aisles of a supermarket. 
Scientists created a computer simulation to study how far the virus can travel indoors - and worryingly found how a cloud of droplets will infect others even after the sick person has walked away.



 The simulation shows how immediately after someone coughs (right), coronavirus particles are spread across a supermarket aisle and go airborne. The blue particles show those at lower heights, the yellow ones are higher up
The simulation shows how immediately after someone coughs (right), coronavirus particles are spread across a supermarket aisle and go airborne. The blue particles show those at lower heights, the yellow ones are higher upCredit: Aalto University
 After a minute, huge numbers of particles remain in the aisle and the cloud is headed into the next aisle
After a minute, huge numbers of particles remain in the aisle and the cloud is headed into the next aisleCredit: Aalto University
 Two minutes into the simulation and while the densest part of the coronavirus particle cloud remains in the original aisle, the virus has spread to the next aisle and the cloud is moving into another
Two minutes into the simulation and while the densest part of the coronavirus particle cloud remains in the original aisle, the virus has spread to the next aisle and the cloud is moving into another

The scientists involved say that the best way to avoid catching the virus is to stay away from busy public spaces like shops and stations.
Professor Ville Vuorinen of Aalto University in Finland told the BBC: "If you go there, only go there seldom as possible. Stay there as short a time as possible"
In a statement accompanying the video, the researchers said: "Preliminary results indicate that aerosol particles carrying the virus can remain in the air longer than was originally thought, so it is important to avoid busy public indoor spaces.
"This also reduces the risk of droplet infection, which remains the main path of transmission for coronavirus."
The study was conducted by scientists from Finland's Aalto University, the Finnish Meteorological Institute, the VTT Technical Research Centre of Finland, and the University of Finland.
Experts researched how small airborne aerosol particles are transported in the air when emitted from the respiratory tract when sneezing, coughing or even talking.
They said: "In the situation under investigation, the aerosol cloud spreads outside the immediate vicinity of the coughing person and dilutes in the process.
"However, this can take up to several minutes.
“Extremely small particles of this size do not sink on the floor, but instead, move along in the air currents or remain floating in the same place."
Professor Vuorinen also said: "Someone infected by the coronavirus can cough and walk away, but then leave behind extremely small aerosol particles carrying the coronavirus.
"These particles could then end up in the respiratory tract of others in the vicinity."

Monday, November 4, 2019

MELPOMENI DINA-RIGHTEOUS AMONG THE NATIONS



Melpomeni Dina reacts as she is reunited with Holocaust survivors
Melpomeni Dina (center) reacts as she is reunited with Holocaust survivors Yossi Mor (right) and his sister Sarah Yanai, whom she helped hide and escape the Nazis in 1943, at the Hall of Names at the Yad Vashem Holocaust memorial in Jerusalem on Sunday, November 3, 2019.

One by one, the 40 descendants of a group of Israeli siblings leaned down and hugged the elderly Greek woman to whom they owe their very existence, as she sat in her wheelchair and wiped away tears streaking down her wrinkled face.
Clutching the hands of those she hid, fed and protected as a teenager more than 75 years ago, 92-year-old Melpomeni Dina said she could now "die quietly."
Sunday's emotional encounter was the first time Dina had met the offspring of the Mordechai family she helped save during the Holocaust. Once a regular ritual at Israel's Yad Vashem Holocaust memorial, such gatherings are rapidly dwindling due to the advanced ages of both survivors and rescuers and may not happen again. The soon-to-be-extinct reunion is the latest reminder for Holocaust commemorators preparing for a post-survivor world.
"The risk they took upon themselves to take in an entire family knowing that it put them and everyone around them in danger," said Sarah Yanai, today 86, who was the oldest of the five siblings Dina and others sheltered. "Look at all these around us. We are now a very large and happy family and it is all thanks to them saving us."



Melpomeni Dina joins in a group photoMelpomeni Dina (center) poses for a group photo during a reunion at the Yad Vashem Holocaust memorial in Jerusalem on Sunday. Dina, a 92-year-old Greek woman who rescued a Jewish family during the Holocaust, has been reunited with two of the people she saved and dozens of their family members. Once a regular ritual, such reunions are quickly disappearing due to the advanced age of the rescuers and survivor.
The most famous cases are Oskar Schindler, whose efforts to save more than 1,000 Jews were documented in Steven Spielberg's 1993 film "Schindler's List," and Raoul Wallenberg, a Swedish diplomat who is credited for having saved at least 20,000 Jews before mysteriously disappearing.The names of those honored for refusing to be indifferent to the genocide are engraved along an avenue of trees at the Jerusalem memorial. Only a few hundred are believed to still be alive.
"This is probably going to our last reunion, because of age and frailty," said Stanlee Stahl, the executive vice president of the Jewish Foundation for the Righteous, which sponsored the event and which provides $1 million a year in monthly stipends to those recognized.
She said her organization has been doing such reunions every year since 1992, but this one was likely the last of its kind and therefore particularly emotional. Similar reunions sponsored by Yad Vashem of long-lost siblings or other relatives also are coming to an end.
"Either the survivor has passed on, the righteous has passed on or in some instances either the survivor or the righteous gentile is unable to travel," she said, choking up. "You see the survivors, their children, their grandchildren, you see the future. To me it is very, very, very special. In a way, a door closes, one opens. The door is closing ever so slowly on the reunions.



Melpomeni Dina greets descendants of Holocaust survivorsMelpomeni Dina (second from right) greets descendants of Holocaust survivors Yossi Mor (right) and his sister Sarah Yanai (third from right), whom she helped hide in 1943, at the Hall of Names at the Yad Vashem Holocaust memorial in Jerusalem on Sunday, November 3.2019

The Mordechai family lived in Veria, Greece, near Thessaloniki, where nearly the entire Jewish community was annihilated within a few months in one of the most brutal executions of the Nazis.
When the Nazis began rounding up the Jews for deportation in early 1943, the family's non-Jewish friends provided them with fake identity cards and hid them in the attic of the old abandoned Turkish mosque. They were there for almost a year, hearing the screams outside of other Jews being rounded up. But eventually they had to leave because their health was declining in the cramped, unventilated attic.
That's when Dina and her two older sisters took the family of seven into their own single-room home on the outskirts of the city, sharing with them their meager food rations. One of the children, a six-year-old boy named Shmuel, became gravely ill and had to be taken to a hospital, despite the risk of exposing his identity. He died there.
Shortly after, the family was informed upon and Dina's sisters and their relatives helped them flee in various directions.
Yanai, the oldest, headed for the woods, another went to the mountains, and the mother headed out on foot with her youngest two surviving children in search of another hiding spot. Dina and her orphaned and impoverished sisters provided them with clothing before their departure. The family reunited after liberation and made its way to Israel, where the children built families of their own.
Yossi Mor, today 77, was just an infant when his family was taken in, but he said he could still remember a few things, such as when his older brother died and the kindness they encountered from their rescuers — who gave them various forms of refuge for nearly two years.
"They fed us, they gave us medicine, they gave us the protection, everything, they washed our clothes," he said, before gesturing toward Dina. "She loved me very much."
Mor and Yanai had gotten together with Dina in Greece years ago. But the younger generation of their extended family, which included grade-school children in pigtails and soldiers in uniform, had never met her before Sunday's ceremony. The two soldiers proudly pushed Dina and Yanai throughout the complex in their wheelchairs.
A special committee, chaired by a retired Supreme Court justice, is responsible for vetting every case of "Righteous Among the Nations" before awarding the title. Following a lengthy process, between 400 and 500 are typically recognized a year and the process will continue and new stories come to light even for those awarded posthumously, said Joel Zisenwise, the director of the department at Yad Vashem.
"What we see here is moving in the sense that we have evidence of an ongoing relationship of the rescuers with the survivors and the descendants. It is an ongoing form of paying tribute," he said. "It definitely is moving to see these families coming together knowing that they may indeed be one of the last meetings."

Monday, September 23, 2019

ANOTHER BIRTHDAY




ANOTHER BIRTHDAY


My older son Steven Nathaniel Wolkoff would have been 42 years old today.

What can a parent say on the birthday of their dead child?

A living child asks for a birthday party. 

As they become older, you, as the parent, ask them what they want for their birthday. There’s dialogue. 

It’s tradition to remember your child's birthday, to not do so ignores that they lived.
But what exactly is a parent supposed to do on the birthday of their child when he is gone?

Not gone, as in out of town or at the beach, or out of the country. Gone as in, no longer alive.
A dead child doesn’t want. 

A dead son asks for nothing.
What does a mom or dad and siblings do?

Where’s the rule book for recognizing birthdays of a dead child?

Steven was born on the first day of Fall and died on the first day of Summer. 
There is something odd to me about the the significance of the equinox and solstice in his life and its parallel meaning to the Earth. 

If the autumnal equinox represents balance, then the summer solstice was most certainly the day we felt our world come to a deafening halt on the longest day of the year.

Steven lies dead in a grave because of the negligence and indifference of those who killed him, stole his life at the age of 30, and have tried to erase that he ever lived.

I mourn what was, what could of been, and what will never be.

You deserved so much better my son, it just wasn't meant to be. 


Love, Dad 

Sunday, June 30, 2019

MOM



I thought of you with love today
but that is nothing new

I thought about you yesterday
and days before that too,
I think of you in silence
I often speak your name

All I have are memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake
with which I’ll never part
I have you in my heart.

Hug me strongly, and carry me home
Dear Mom, one more kiss again

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake from which I’ll never part. God has you in His arms, I have you in my heart.

See more at: http://www.idlehearts.com/?p=24438I thought of you with love today
Today is the day that my Mother, Dorothy Wolkoff died on June 30th,1997. It was sudden and there was never a chance to say goodbye.
 
My mom was the strongest, toughest, most courageous, gentle, caring person I have ever known. 

Biology aside, mom's can be magical human beings. A mother's love is unlimited, it can heal us, make us feel safe, and inspire us. My mother was all that and more. How lucky I am.

She taught me much, but in particular, emphasized the importance of self pride, work/life ethics, compassion, caring, and being humble. 

In spite of her hard life, she provided for my sister and myself, by doing whatever was necessary for us to live, we never lacked for anything because of her grueling unselfish efforts. 

My mother was the only one who believed in me, particularly during my youth, and stubbornly never gave up, no matter how much I screwed up. 

Without her support during my most difficult years as a youngster, a wild acting out teenager, she ALWAYS stood up to me, for me, guided me, and refused to give in, or give up on me. It was not easy for her to do that, but she would not back down, ever.

My mother literally saved my life many times, she was one of a kind, I will always remember and love her for that. 
I told my mom in many different ways over the years how much she eventually contributed to my taking the correct productive path with my life all because of her. 

I spent much of my adult life making my mother proud of me, telling her how much I loved her. 

Whatever is good in me, came from my mother. 

I love and miss you mom.