THE MANANA MIND-WHAT ME WORRY

                                                 I DON'T CARE ANYMORE

Your mind is a strange place, no matter who you are and what your life is about.

The mind comes in every possible combination, some we choose, others are learned, the rest we cannot understand where and why.

You can control it, lose control, brainwash, white-wash, deceive, convince and be convinced of anything.

It can be the ultimate super computer, with enormous memory storage, endless capabilities of creating truths, lies, illusions, guilt,  demons, angels, and just about anything you can think of, or not.

The mind is the center within us of many things, including suffering, happiness, depression, sadness, pain, and just about everything we feel. 

I am afflicted with a mind that demands intense feelings, needs to understand everything that is happening, and proactiveness in all that I do. On one hand it has enabled me to survive where others would not be able, but it is also a curse as my mind never rests.

For the past several years I have been trying to teach myself the philosophy and science of becoming a "manana person".

It has been a difficult learning experience, mostly a failure so far, because this requires everything I was ever taught and consumed as a thinking person to be consciously obliterated by me.

A "manana person" is someone of great holiness, honed skills, whose lifestyle, the very essence  of their being, doesn't waste their minds energy and time worrying about what might or might not be. They are not necessarily stupid people, but it helps in acquiring these skills faster.

I envy "manana people" because they understand or perhaps don't even bother to comprehend that we have so little control over what happens to us in life.

It is in this meaning, this being, that I seek the holy grail of obtuseness in becoming a "manana person".

I must admit that I have no chance to attain this goal for myself but there have been some moments where I have been able to enjoy the freedom of not caring about what happens in a particular situation.

It may not seem like a big deal to you, but when it happens, what a thrill I feel for myself.

I kinda push the thoughts out of my mind, they keep returning to my mind, and then I kick them out, eventually forgetting what I was thinking about in the first place. 

Sometimes it works and other times it doesn't, but how wonderful when it does. 

The mantra is: I don't care.

Sounds reckless, irresponsible and oblivious to consequences.

On the contrary, I believe that it is the best way to get through the maze of life.

When you don't care about outcomes, you don't worry. 

When you don't worry, you don't stress.

When you don't stress, you live a happier and longer life. 

You have confidence in yourself, your actions, your inaction's, your smaller footprint.

You stand tall, you smile because you appreciate life more as it is, and not as it should be.

As the distinguished Philosopher and Neuroscientist Alfred E. Neuman stated:

                                                       WHAT ME WORRY

                                          

                                     

REBLOGGED FROM JOOST BLOG-"THANK YOU STEVE"

REBLOGGED FROM: Joost Blog

 Posted by Ben Hurst on Jun 26, 08

Thank you, Steve

We recently learned that Steve Wolkoff, our friend at  FreeWheel, died in a  tragic car accident. 

As one of FreeWheel’s first customers, we met Steve when FreeWheel first started, and worked closely with him through regular calls and face-to- face meetings.

As our relationship with FreeWheel developed, our admiration and respect for Steve grew stronger. 

We only knew him for a few months, but his poise, confidence, and approach to everything he worked on gave the entire Joost team a huge sense of comfort knowing we were in good hands, working with a pro. 

Steve helped us solve complex problems and always provided a voice of reason. He had so much more to offer. 

We’ll miss his sound advice, winning smile and all around great attitude.

On behalf of the entire Joost team, I'd like to thank you, Steve, for your hard work, your unrelenting commitment to our business, and for your spirit – you’re sorely missed.

Our deepest sympathies, thoughts, and prayers go to the Wolkoffs, Steve's girlfriend, Cindy, and the entire

FreeWheel team.

Posted by Ben Hurst on Jun 26, 08 | Permalink

REBLOGGED-"TAKE A MOMENT TO MOURN OUR FRIEND STEVEN TODAY"

REBLOGGED FROM:

Diane's Blog

Posted by Diane- 9/23/2009 12:49 PM

http://blog.dianeyu.com

 Take a moment to mourn our friend Steve Wolkoff today...

There have been a lot going on recently, we just finished FreeWheel's  second management  summit at NYC, long meetings, even longer list of actions. On top of that, new contracts announcements,  v2.7 just released last night, customer launches today...etc  etc... Man...We are exhausted...

When everything  is coming at you, it is hard to stop and think and remind ourselves what is important in our lives...My outlook just popped up and reminded me that it is Steve's birthday today, he would have been 32 today...It is hard for me to imagine that it has been a year... Steve, who  passed away last year, right before our first management  summit, turns 32 today.

It has been a year, we are moving steadily toward turning our vision into reality, a vision that Steve firmly believes as well. While we are celebrating milestones,  collecting happy memories, let's take a moment to remember our friend, Steve, who shares the same value and vision with us, would have been celebrating  along with us...

Steve Wolkoff, may you have God's peace...And happy birthday to you!

http://stevewolkoff.com/

REBLOGGED - "A FRIEND SORELY MISSED AND WILL BE FOREVER REMEMBERED

REBLOGGED FROM:

Diane's Blog

Posted By Diane June 23, 2008

http://blog.dianeyu.com

Steve Wolkoff - A friend sorely missed and will be forever remembered.

It was 8:45am Sunday morning, as I was pulling my car out of the drive way, Doug's ID flashed on my cellphone, I picked up the phone and puzzled because Doug doesn't call me on a Sunday morning. 

"Hello?", Doug's voice was on the phone, "Did I wake you up? I am sorry that I have a very bad news." 

For a second I thought there was a problem with production or we run into trouble with a customer...Then Doug continued: "Steve died in a car accident on highway 1 last night..." 

My mind went completely blank...I repeatedly yelled to the phone with disbelief: "Steve?! You meant the Steve Wolkoff?! Steve?!"... 24 hours later, I am still shocked and speechless, trying to avoid any topic related to Steve, couldn't hold on to read any email related to him, refusing to admit that I won't see him tomorrow, with his trademark grin — as how Mike puts it. 

I have known Steve since he was in GTS at DoubleClick, then getting to know him more when he started on DART Motif, and finally, there is FreeWheel, I get to work with him all those days and nights. 

It is like yesterday when I first introduced him to FreeWheel Beijing team, I was so proud that Steve, yet another ex- clicker chose to join us because he believes in our vision and the people executing it. 

Along with Steve, came with his sunshine personality, a bit shy, a bit reserved, however, always with a smile on his face - the Steve Wolkoff trademark grin. 

I know I will not get over the fact that Steve has left us forever, deep in my heart somewhere, I still hope that this is just a bad dream, When I wake up, everything is going to be alright...When I wake up, he would smile at me, and says "You know, that is a really good point. 

Let me own that."...When I wake up, he would wave at me from his table, says "Hey, Diane, nice to see you here at San Mateo office!"...When I wake up, he would join me on yet another Beijing trip, trying out all "Diane's special tofu" dishes that I am throwing at him, and says "Interesting"... 

I am sharing some pictures taken last August from Kevin, when Steve joined the Beijing team on the Great Wall trip, with Jon and Mike. Steve in the back row, with his trademark grin:

Steve in the back row, with his trademark  grin:

My favorite picture of Steve:

LIFE BRINGS US BACK TO WHAT WE ARE MEANT FOR.... ALWAYS.

                                                                TIME

I wish I had spent more time living than fighting.

More time happy, than sad.

More time touching than looking.

More time playing than working.

More time content than angry.

More time loving than not.

More time enjoying than worrying.

More time free than surviving.

More time doing than planning.

More time caring than not.

More time being stupid than smart.

The incessant, cascading, crushing movement of time, so easy to miss, so costly to lose.

Time leads, and then follows, it is relentless. 

The endless flashes of life, past and present, vividly, hauntingly real, lost, wandering, abandoned, brutally painful, repeatedly stream in and out of restless sleep, breathing 
first with me, then against me. 

The faces, the names, the stories never change. The beginnings, the middles, the ends, never change. Paths cross, mingle, hold together, then break apart. 

So ugly, tortuous, that I need to wake myself up, come out of the nightmares to show that it's not happening now. But I can't wake myself up, stuck in the vortex of hell, until finally I am awake, heart beating out of my chest, exhausted, tired, like I just ran a marathon.

Reflections of the past, and every nuanced moment in my life, night after night relived, the race against the devil, slowly getting the best of me.

In a distant forgotten time, lays a brief time of innocence. I am gliding freely, remembering nothing but peacefulness. 

My eyes open and there is reality, the spectacle of life, ebbing and flowing, and then finding its way to dream again. It moves unbroken and determined, chasing me, racing me, pursuing me.

It was never meant to be easy.

It was never meant to be fair.

It was never meant to be otherwise.

The incessantly speedy and yet crawling turtle slow movement of time, so easy to miss, so precious to lose.

LIFE BRINGS US BACK TO WHAT WE ARE MEANT FOR.... ALWAYS.

A MOTHER'S LOVE LASTS FOREVER

                              

 
 

I thought of you with love today
but that is nothing new

I thought about you yesterday
and days before that too,
I think of you in silence
I often speak your name

All I have are memories
and your picture in a frame.

Your memory is my keepsake
with which I’ll never part
I have you in my heart.

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake from which I’ll never part. God has you in His arms, I have you in my heart.

See more at: http://www.idlehearts.com/?p=24438I thought of you with love today

Today is the day that my Mother, Dorothy Wolkoff died on June 30th,1997. It was sudden and there was never a chance to say goodbye.
 

 My mom was the strongest, toughest, most courageous, gentle, caring person I have ever known. 
Biology aside, mom's can be magical human beings. A mother's love is unlimited, it can heal us, make us feel safe, not to mention inspire us. My mother was all that and more. How lucky I am.

My mother was the only one who believed in me, particularly during my youth, and stubbornly never gave up, no matter how much I screwed up. 

She taught me much, but in particular, emphasized the importance of self pride, work/life ethics, compassion, caring, and being humble. 

In spite of her hard life, she provided for my sister and myself, by doing whatever was necessary for us to live, we never lacked for anything, because of her grueling unselfish efforts. My mother literally saved my life many times, she was one of a kind, I will always remember and love her for that. 

Without her support during my most difficult years as a youngster, a wild acting out teenager, she ALWAYS stood up to me, for me, guided me, and refused to give in, or give up on me. It was not easy for her to do that, but she would not back down, ever.

I told my mom in many different ways over the years how much this eventually contributed to my taking the correct productive path with my life, instead of continuing in the wrong direction, ALL because of her. 

I spent much of my adult life making my mother proud of me, telling her how much I loved her. 


Whatever is good in me, came from my mother. 


I miss you mom.

TERMINALLY STUPID AWARD FOR TODAY-CLARENCE THOMAS

Saturday, June 27, 2015

The Supreme Court ruled yesterday that the U.S. Constitution provides same sex couples the right to marry, handing a historic triumph to the American gay rights movement.

The court ruled 5-4 that the Constitution's guarantees of due process and equal protection under the law mean that states cannot ban same sex marriages. 

With the landmark ruling, gay marriage becomes legal in all 50 states.

There are many articles, commentary being written about this ruling that all Americans are guaranteed equality by the Constitution of the United States.

There are also many haters, hypocrites, self-righteous "losers" who have opened their mouths in not being able to understand the true meaning of Democracy, that whether you agree or disagree with something, when the majority rules in elections, Supreme Court decisions, whatever, you need to shut up and accept the decision gracefully.

Lately I have been informally choosing the "Terminal Stupid Award of the Day" to various deserving people who push the definition of human intelligence to the outer depths of extreme ignorance when it comes to talking about victims.

Someone has to recognize these morons, there are so many of them, and I will try to be more formal in the future, blogging about those who really are deserving of receiving this award.

Today's terminally stupid award goes to: 

Justice Clarence Thomas in his personal dissenting statement to the Supreme Courts Ruling on Gay Rights.

You remember Clarence Thomas, he is the second African American to have been appointed to the Supreme Court (after the legendary Thurgood Marshall).

Thomas has endured negative publicity beginning with his contentious confirmation hearings.

On the bench, Thomas is sometimes referred to as "Silent Clarence" for almost never speaking, or asking a question during oral arguments before the Supreme Court.

                                                  Clarence Thomas

Thomas is apparently very upset about the majority of his colleagues writing so much about "dignity" for gay couples in today's decision. 

Here's what he said today about human dignity:

Thomas, in his bizarre bubble world of terminal stupidity, has no clue to his own lack of dignity as a human being, let alone to comment about that of others.

Clarence is saying that dignity is like the soul. It can never be taken away, certainly not by the government, especially not by those evil kinds of governments that torture, murder, enslave, oppress, terrorize, intimidate, jail, and remove human rights, freedoms, from it's people.

According to his reasoning, your dignity hasn't been compromised by laws against gay marriage any more than the Nazis murdering 6 million Jews because they were Jewish, or slavery compromised the dignity of the Africans who were abducted, exploited, raped and murdered in its name.

Tell that to a holocaust victim of horrific Concentration Camps, slaves, women who have been raped, innocent murdered human beings, their families, all victims of injustice, and most having lost their dignity through no fault of their own.

What Mr. Thomas is incapable of understanding is this: good law creates its own dignity as well as dignity for its beneficiaries. 

Evil law, like that which forced men, women, and children to jump out of cattle cars, disrobe, and walk naked down a path to gas chambers while a orchestra played Mozart, creates no dignity, it steals human dignity and turns it to ash.

What a stupid, ignorant, insipid, disingenuous, self-serving little weasel, Thomas is overwhelmingly entitled to today's terminally stupid award winner. 

Stupid is defined in the dictionary as:

: not intelligent : having or showing a lack of ability to learn and understand things

: not sensible or logical

: not able to think normally because you are drunk, tired, etc.

1

a :  slow of mind :  obtuse

b :  given to unintelligent decisions or acts :  acting in an unintelligent or careless manner

c :  lacking intelligence or reason :  brutish

2

:  dulled in feeling or sensation :  torpid stupid

 from the sedative>

3

:  marked by or resulting from unreasoned thinking or acting :  senseless stupid

 decision>

4

a :  lacking interest or point stupid

 event>

b :  vexatious, exasperating

"Silent Clarence" you meet all the standards of the word stupid.

 So, I think the reason you don't participate in courtroom questioning, is that your terminally stupid. Case Closed.