Tuesday, June 6, 2017

59 YEARS AGO. WAS IT WORTH IT?



Samuel Wolkoff- June 6th, 1958, forever etched in my soul. My father was gruesomely murdered on this day many years ago, at the age of 42. 

I was 10 years old. He lost his life that day, I lost my childhood, my inner peace, and my soul. 

Samuel Wolkoff was MY FATHER. Tragically, I hardly remember anything about him, and almost nothing about our relationship as father and son.

Today's Blog is in memory of Samuel Wolkoff, My Dad, tortured and murdered (CLICK HERE TO READ MORE).

The march of the dead continues, May/June are the saddest months for me, I dread this time of the year, horrifically gruesome memories of human, innocent lives of my family wasted. 

The rest of the year, the ever present demons make sure I remember those whose memories others have tried to erase, these are my family, they were human beings who will never be forgotten by me, they lived and never deserved to die in such horribly suffering ways. 

To me it's very personal when June 6th arrives every year, a very painful day. It has now been 59 agonizing years since my father Samuel Wolkoff was brutally tortured and murdered.

I am often intrigued as to why over 83,000 people as of this date have visited my Blog. 

I suppose they come for many different reasons and I can see they are from all over the world.


There are many good people who come here, victims, families of victims, people seeking justice, those who are fighting against injustice, human beings who care. 

But there are also extremely evil people who visit here. 

I see search terms on my blog from people who arrive looking for information about my father, a lot of other interesting search words that only "you" would know. 

I get emails frequently, mostly anonymous from others about the monster subhuman animal who murdered my father. They vary from other victims families murdered by the monster, friends of his, and entities that shall remain not named by me.  

Some of you are the cowardly, but powerfully dangerous scum bags who murdered my father, some are close murderous associates of my father, as well as those of you in the arrogant, incompetent, corrupt law enforcement systems, whose agencies knowingly covered their asses, and in doing so, betrayed your sworn oaths to defend justice, by participating in covering up the truth, obstructing justice in this capital offense, which has no statute of limitations.

There are visitors here who are criminals, murderers, organized organized crime family leaders, law enforcement, the curious, all are responsible by their actions or inaction's for the injustices that are specifically detailed in many of my different Blog posts about all the victims I write about.

For an ultra private person like me, a blog is obscenely public, personal, grossly revealing, definitely not my style, but  interestingly, momentarily cleansing, a way of coming out, being up front with unbearable realities, my reality. Mostly I do it for those that can no longer speak for themselves, who experienced unimaginable suffering that ended their lives. In this moment, my father's reality.

I do know that MY FATHER was a courageous HERO. 

My father believed in kindness, honesty, family, hard work, ethics, and his rights as a human being to reap the fruits of his labor for himself and our family.

He was a man who did not run away from the corrupt animals who wanted a "cut of his business" for themselves. 

He believed in himself and the law enforcement, legal, supposedly ethical "systems" to protect him from those that wanted the business that he had built from nothing, with his blood and sweat.

He believed in a code of personal ethics, morality, integrity that dictated honor, family, respect, fairness, loyalty, faith in humanity, and that no one is entitled to steal from another human being their right to live.

On June 6th, 1958 the world was already very evil, corrupt, his life was cheap, and scum bags took what they wanted, from who ever they wanted. That was the day they took my father's life, his business, and all of our souls.

Today, June 6th, 2017, the world is infinitely more evil, more corrupt, life is even cheaper, scum bags enjoy their lives as they take even more of what they want, from whomever they choose.

Many of the murderers of my father, and their children are still alive. They have all done extremely well financially and live with a high standard of living for themselves, their families have all thrived in spite of their evil deeds. 


Yes, my father was a hero, he is a hero who sacrificed his life for his beliefs. Seems old fashioned, naive, for someone to believe so strongly in doing the right thing. 

Yet somehow, he who had nothing, created a thriving business, and maintained his righteousness of believing in goodness, his business associates, his relatives, the legal/law enforcement system, and that being a hard working, good person is to be rewarded.

In the end, his naive belief in the humanity of others, particularly his relatives (we know who you are) proved that he was DEAD wrong and he paid for it with his life. 

We all know each other, or about each other, you know I have hidden away safely the written confidential secret official documents with my honest law enforcement and political friends, the written proof of all documented detailed real facts that would expose the ugly truths. 

Nothing to be concerned about, it will remain buried. 

We know the deal that protects all of us, the reasons that nothing else has been done by any of us about my father's murder, the reason these documents will remain hidden, is the unspoken but very clear mutual understanding we all have forever, of don't ever again fuck with any of my family, and in return, we won't fuck with any of you by making the real truth public.

Dead heroes, no matter how courageous they are, never get remembered by society for their acts of courage. They are quickly forgotten, except by those who loved them.

Was it worth it for MY FATHER, Samuel Wolkoff, to stand his ground and give up his life in such a terrifying, grotesque manner at the hands of cowardly pussy punks? 

Was it worth the unimaginable pain that he felt as he was tortured slowly for 5 hours on the night of June 6, 1958? 

What must he have been thinking during those horrific hours of going in and out of consciousness as they repeatedly tightened and loosened a rope around his neck?

Samuel Wolkoff's cause of death, 5 long hours of tortured Murder By Strangulation. 

Try to hold your breath for as long as you can, then wait 40 more seconds, exhale, that will give you a tiny sense of the horrific way my father felt for 5  consecutive hours, a rope tied as a noose, was continuously alternately tightened, then loosened around his neck, while his hands were tied behind his back. 

Death, when it finally came, must have been a merciful release for my father.

Was it worth it to believe that your goodness would triumph above evil, that god would watch over you, that law enforcement would protect you, that your wife, and children would not suffer beyond imagination for the rest of our lives?

The world did not care about his life and did nothing.

Justice not served, justice not given, nothing complicated, nothing new, an innocent, good person, a human life stolen without any remorse, it happens all the time. 

My father's fatal errors that cost him his life? He  believed in trust, in the sense of obligation to very close members of his family, by giving them a chance to change their ways.

The good deeds he did, paid back by these very same, who had him murdered. Horrifically ugly, but brutally true, and they all got away with it, no guilt, no conscience, didn't bother any of them, never mattered to them.

Today we remember my courageous father. He is not resting in peace, and he never will rest in peace, that is certain. 

How can a loved one who dies suffering, rest in peace, ever? The answer is they cannot rest in peace because of the way they died.

Seems like a simple thing to believe and its even reduced to a short acronym, R.I.P., easy to write. I can't write it, not possible, not after all the never ending suffering of my father, and our family.

Was it worth it, my hero, my dear beloved father? 

Was it worth it?

Sunday, May 28, 2017

MY SISTER IRIS





It always begins on this date every year.

My beloved sister Iris died on May 28th, 2004, and this marks the beginning of the period each year that fills me with incalculable suffering,
 inexplicable unfairness, tragedy that has wrought its massive destruction of so many good, loved members of my family, who deserved so very much better than they received in life and death.  

Once again, another year has passed and I dread the intensified agony of overwhelming grief that envelops me for these lost souls of my family during the upcoming months.

I need not be told that it is here, since the pain is always present, all the time, year round, but becomes insidiously unbearable as of this date, and in the next few months, every year.

I painfully miss and mourn those of my immediate family who have died, more so than at any other time, as each year passes.

Increasingly difficult, filled with the aching of a lifetime beaten down into the ever present, toxic, non stop personal demons, nightmares, flash backs, with memories vividly stamped inside my brain, as if it were just yesterday that we were all together as a family and of course, big sister and little brother.

I planted purple Iris flowers, one of them pictured above in the garden out front of my house when my sister died.


Each year I take new pictures as they spring to life and insert one on this blog in memory of her. 


I like the idea that they are perennials, returning every year, flowering in all their beauty, now looking so alive on another anniversary today of the day she died, after a courageous, painful battle to live. 

We do that a lot in my family, fighting to live life to the fullest, and when our time comes, refusing to let go until our last precious breath. They call our family fighters, survivors, and that is what we do in both living our life with happiness as a gift never to be taken for granted, and also the darkness which is part of remembering.

Iris was a unique and compassionate person who quietly touched everyone she met with her kindness and strength. 

Iris is missed by all of us who loved her. We will never forget her beautiful smile.

My sister was full of life, insightful, quiet, brave,

loyal, sagely wise, and then she was gone forever, horribly, excruciatingly painfully, and irrevocably. 

She deserved so much better in her short time on this earth but it was not to be.

Iris, my sister, a gift to me in life, was more beautiful in a million ways than these magnificent flowers. 


I will miss you forever my dear sister Iris, most of all, 


I will always miss your caring love. 

I love you. 

Love, Your little brother- Jerry.



Wednesday, May 24, 2017

DAN

Dan was a friend of my kids about 20 years ago through middle school and high school. He stayed in the neighborhood after graduating high school while most of his friends went on to Colleges away from home.

A few days ago, my neighbor rang my bell to tell me that there was a "strange man" wandering outside asking her if my family still lived in this house. She was concerned because he appeared disheveled and didn't seem to be make sense when he spoke.

I went outside and after a few seconds recognized that this ghost of a young man in his early 30's was Dan. I hadn't seen him in 20 years and I hugged him, asking him "how are you"?

Dan replied with the words "truth, doing OK". After a few more seconds it became apparent that Dan could no longer communicate coherently, unable to put more than 3 or 4 words together, while at the same time his entire body was literally shaking with spasms.

I told Dan that he was not speaking clearly to me and he seemed to be ill. His response was "No, OK, truth, Ok, truth, Yes".

My kids had told me that during high school Dan was using drugs and later on had escalated to hard drug usage. It was now as I previously said over 20 yrs. later and Dan had apparently suffered some type of psychotic breakdown and/or brain damage from his many years of drug usage. He did not appear to be high, but did appear to be heavily medicated on some cocktail of anti-psychotic medications. He also was loudly talking, arguing out loud with himself, and answering, a sign that he was hearing voices inside his head.

I was stunned. Although I have treated many people with psychiatric disorders and drug addictions, this was Dan, the sweet, kind kid that used to hang out in my house and play sports with us. This was Dan who was filled with life, dreams, and plans for his future. 

What I saw was a horrific sight, a living, death that inhabited a hollow body with almost no brain remaining.

My first reaction was to offer him food, he said "No, truth", my next reaction was to offer him some money and he replied "No". 

I asked him where he lived and he said the name of a local SRO flea bag hotel that the County used for storage of human beings who were homeless or had psychiatric disorders. 

I asked him if he wanted to talk with me, could I help him, he said "No". I asked what he was doing at my house, he mentioned the name of one of my children. Surprisingly he then said my name "Jerry, your good man, and repeated it several times.

He asked about one of my kids and wanted to know if I could give his phone number in case he wanted to contact Dan. He couldn't write as his hands were trembling so much, so I wrote Dan's cell phone number down and put it in my pocket.

Dan left after awhile and I saw him down the street, yelling loudly, arguing with himself, pacing, then resuming that cycle over and over repeatedly. 

He came back to my house, stood in front for another 15 minutes and continued his ranting behavior. After awhile Dan disappeared around the corner.

I imagine that something had stirred inside of Dan to take a walk through his old neighborhood, perhaps to try remembering who he used to be.

I found myself asking was Dan "better off" dead than being "alive" in this suffering state of mind. He was beyond help and has no future. He is not going to get better, he will become even more lost as he ages and continues to be part of the "system" that warehouses him.

As a human being, this sick mumbling, incoherent Dan, touched me emotionally in a tragically sad manner, that I couldn't do anything to help him.

I have stayed with this image in my mind, in my heart since then, although I don't want to remember what it was like talking to a dead living person who I used to know.

Sure we can blame some of Dan's problems on choices he made for himself, or where is his mom, or brother to help him, but shit, I am not into blaming anyone.

Dan is in intolerable pain, a walking zombie, waiting for his life to end and take him out of his misery.

That no-one can help ease his pain, stop his suffering, is haunting.

That he is alone, lost, and broken into splattered pieces of brain matter is an ugly image.

Dan, you deserved better but that's never going to be. I am sorry that your in such agony.

Monday, April 10, 2017

FLYING THE UNFRIENDLY SKIES OF UNITED AIRLINES

UPDATED-April 12, 2017

Dr. David Dao, 69, has been named as the passenger who was dragged from a United Airlines flight after refusing to give up his seat, according to The Courier-Journal.
The Louisville news outlet reports that Dao is a doctor practicing in Elizabethtown, Kentucky.
Dao is undergoing treatment in a Chicago hospital for his injuries.
In a statement from his family “The family of Dr. Dao wants the world to know that they are very appreciative of the outpouring of prayers, concern and support they have received. Currently, they are focused only on Dr. Dao’s medical care and treatment,” said Golan.
"Until Dr. Dao is released from the hospital, the family is asking for privacy and will not be making any statements to the media," 
David Dao, 69 yrs. old, Dragged Off Overbooked Flight After Refusing to Give up Seat
              A horrifying new video shows the passenger,  Dr. David dao, 69 yrs.old,bloodied and incoherent after being violently removed from the flight by police, clutching a post and repeating “just kill me.”

Whatever happened to simple common sense?

You know when reading something that cannot possibly be true and it turns out to actually have happened, that stupidity has once again reached a new low.
All I can say is, what the fuck are the employees and executives of United Airlines doing? 
Obviously they are unable to think, unable to show a nano synapse of common sense, unable to comprehend that a paying customer of theirs is a human being, unable to understand what the words taking accountability for your actions means, unable to act in any way remotely connected to being worthy of anyone ever flying on their airline.
Have their employees ever been trained in any manner as to interacting in a respectful manner with other human beings?
Clearly they have not or simply put, they truly don't care about their passengers and will literally drag them off an airplane for no reason at all.
The Chicago Department of Aviation said in a statement Monday afternoon that the incident was "not in accordance with" standard operating procedure and the officer's actions were "not condoned" by the department. The officer involved was placed on administrative leave effective Monday pending review of the situation, the department said.
So the Chicago Department of Aviation Police said that the incident was "not in accordance with" standard operating procedure and the officer's actions were "not condoned" by the department. 

Where were these officer's trained? They work for and supposedly were trained by you. Where is your accountability of taking responsibility of your cowardly officer's?

Videos don't lie and if you really meant what you say in your words, these storm trooper morons should be fired and also charged with criminal assault, abuse of power, and probably 10 other codes they violated.

How dumb can your officer's be to blindly, viciously attack an innocent civilian because the United Airlines crew complained to you about something that was NOT illegal on the part of the passenger. He paid for his ticket, it was his seat, he had every right to stay on that airplane. 

The Chicago Police Department said in a statement earlier Monday that around 6 p.m. on Sunday, a 69-year-old passenger "became irate" after he was asked to leave the plane.
"The passenger in question began yelling to voice his displeasure at which point Aviation Police were summoned," police said in the statement.






Image: Security stand in the aisle before forcibly removing a United Airlines passenger from a plane















A man wearing a security jacket stands in the aisle before a United Airlines passenger is forcibly removed from a plane at O'Hare International Airport in Chicago on Sunday, April 9, 2017. Tyler Bridges / Twitter

Police claimed the officers were attempting to carry the man off the flight "when he fell."
"His head subsequently struck an armrest causing injuries to his face," police said, adding that the man was taken to a hospital and treated for non-life threatening injuries. An investigation into the incident was still ongoing.
Multiple attempts to reach the Department of Aviation for comment were not immediately returned.
Tyler Bridges, who posted video of the incident on Twitter, told NBC News he and his wife were on the United plane at O'Hare International Airport from Chicago to Louisville on Sunday when a flight attendant said the flight was overbooked and four people would have to leave to make room for airline employees.
Bridges said the flight attendant offered an $800 voucher for anyone who would volunteer to get off the flight and leave the following day at 3 p.m.
"Nobody moved, nobody got up," he said.
When no one volunteered, Bridges said, a gate agent told them the airline had used an algorithm to randomly select four people to get off the plane.
First, a young couple was asked to leave and, "they're not happy, but they get off. No problem," Bridges said.
Then the unidentified man in the video was asked to leave, Bridges said.
"He says he's a doctor and has to be in Louisville in the morning to see patients," he said. "He says he can't be delayed a day."
The agent then said if the man did not leave, she was going to call security, according to Bridges.
The man refused, prompting a verbal exchange with law enforcement officers, Bridges said.
One of them "walks down the aisle and starts yelling at the man. He grabs him, throws him out of his seat and they drag him off," Bridges said.
"Everyone is disturbed," Bridges said. "It was kind of a dramatic scene."
After the man was dragged away, the four United employees boarded the flight, he said.
But a few minutes later, the man who was removed from the flight ran back on the plane, saying he needed to get back home.
"Somehow he got back on," Bridges said. "He runs back on — dazed, bloodied, kind of in a mess — yelling 'I have to get home, I have to get home.'"
The man was removed on a stretcher, "resisting the whole time," Bridges said.
It was unclear how the man returned to the plane and what happened after he was removed.
United confirmed in a statement late Sunday that a passenger was removed from the overbooked flight.
"Flight 3411 from Chicago to Louisville was overbooked. After our team looked for volunteers, one customer refused to leave the aircraft voluntarily and law enforcement was asked to come to the gate," the company said in a statement.

Don't take responsibility for your actions and that of the employees. 

Go ahead, you cowards, use "victim blaming", claim it all happened because of this innocent victim who did nothing to cause your cruel, insane, violent behavior to him. 
The company apologized for the overbooking situation and referred additional comment to authorities.
Bridges said passengers felt the man had been wronged.
"Airlines overbook flights all the time — that's not uncommon," Bridges said. "But everyone felt that they had wronged the man."
The flight was delayed three hours as a result of the incident, he added.
The incident comes just two weeks after United faced a public relations storm after two girls who were traveling as family or friends of airline employees were denied entry on a flight for wearing leggings.
Eventually when he found time,the CEO of United Airlines said to customers: "This is an upsetting event to all of us here at United," CEO Oscar Munoz said in a statement. "I apologize for having to re-accommodate these customers. Our team is moving with a sense of urgency to work with authorities and conduct our own detailed review of what happened.We are also reaching out to this passenger to talk directly to him and further address and resolve this situation," he added in the statement.

How nice of him to "apologize" with the fancy new word of  "re-accomodate", what a nice benign word for forcibly dragging, physically removing customers off your airplanes. Such big, meaningless, hollow, wimpy words and not a shred of a real admission that there is nothing for you to review or investigate. Your airline just sucks, say it, and say it loud. 

You also suck Oscar Munoz and are a shameful leader of a stupid bunch of clowns.

In a leaked internal e-mail memo written to employees and obtained by CNBC (after his public statement from above) the CEO Munoz said he “deeply regretted the situation arose,” but said he “emphatically stand[s] behind all” of the employees of the company, and added that he “want[ed] to commend” airline workers for “continuing to go above and beyond to ensure we fly right.”

WRONG Mr. Munoz. You have no clue what you are doing and saying, once again revealing how incompetent you are and the dysfunctional manner in which your Company is operated

TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE mr.CEO and if you had any pride, you would immediately resign before your Board of Directors fires you because your airline is a reflection of you and it's shitty employees.

Dr. Dao has hired a high-profile Chicago attorney.
Tom Demetrio of the Corboy & Demetrio law firm that is routinely in the mix on high-profile personal injury and aviation cases, is part of Dr. David Dao's new legal team.
Dao also is represented by Stephen L. Golan of Golan Christie Taglia, who issued a brief statement on Dao's behalf Tuesday — not long after United's CEO issued an apology for the infamous incident seen around the world.

Demetrio is a partner at Corboy & Demetrio and is a former president of the Chicago Bar Association and the Illinois Trial Lawyers Association.
He's won multimillion dollar settlements in wrongful death cases. According to his bio, Demetrio "has negotiated well over $1 billion in settlements and acquired the largest personal injury verdict ever upheld by the Illinois Supreme Court. He has never lost an appeal."
I hope United Airlines and the Chicago Aviation Police are sued for millions of dollars by the Dr. Dao, that they lose the cases, and whatever tiny credibility they had left.

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

JAKE, HIS SISTER AND THE BUTTERFLY WINDCHIME


                                                                 


A woman in Washington State is sharing a heartbreaking apology note left on her door by a young boy.

Chrissy Marie Reitz posted a photo of the note and a $5 bill that was left with it on her Facebook page last Friday. The note reads: “I am sorry that we stold [sic] your windchime our mom died and liked butterflies so my sister took it to put it by our window I am sorry this is only money I have please do not be mad at us. Jake.
Reitz added that she certainly wasn’t mad at Jake for taking her windchime and she even offered for Jake to come back so that she can return his money and give him another windchime for his sister. “Well Jake, I not sure who you are but you can come get your money back sweetie. I had 3 of those windchimes,” she wrote.
In a separate post on Facebook, Reitz shared that she lost her own mom when she was only 5-years-old, and if she finds Jake, she will “give him his money without embarrassing or scaring him.
So a lot of people have asked me some questions here are the answers. (If I miss your question sorry, just inbox me again and I will answer)
1. Yes , I do know what it's like to loose a parent I was 5 years old when I lost my mom and just lost my dad almost 6 years ago. Everyone unfortunately will loose a parent sometime in their life.
2. Yes, I am a mom 4 boys 1 girl. Love them all dearly. Yes it is true they have health issues.
3. I work from home due to my health and I am loving my business and more freedom I receive this way.
4. If I found Jake what would I do, we'll I would do what I said give him his money without embarrassing or scaring him.
5. How I feel about negative publicity about jake, I find it troubling that people need to point out the worst in everything yes I do know they stole, they stole from me but he did try to make it right most likely without hurting his sister (possible reason for giving me money instead of chime back)
6. I was taught and feel in my heart to forgive and yes that is what I will do.
 As I said if I missed your question I apologize I am not trying to avoid anyone.

In a world filled with hatred, cruelty, and lack of compassion, the words of Chrissy Marie ring like a beacon of hope for kindness and caring.

Jake and his sister are  children, victims of heartbreak, they have lost their mother and much more. Their reality is sad and there will not be a happy ending as their lives are changed for the worst, forever.

Yet their conscience remains intact.

The kindness and caring of Chrissy Marie shine like a beacon of hope in a sick, cruel, heartless, corrupt world, where compassion is rare and cruelty has become the new normal.

"I was taught and feel in my heart to forgive and yes that is what I will do".